i have the ultimate low tolerance. i win.

who knew, three months or so months from the banquet, after swooning over val's boyfriend and telling her he was a fox, that he and i would be sitting up stoned together till 5 in the morning while she snored away in his bedroom? we took a walk together, hid in the pantry, played video games, spun around in circles, and tried to sit while attached to each other. we were constantly high fiving. it was pretty fun. i enjoyed it. he did too, if not more so.

who would have thought?

and now james and i are about up to the same point as we were before, only less pressure for me to see him, and he knows we're staying just friends until something actually develops. not just assuming or something. nothing worked out with that girl, apparently. right now he's crashing from meth.

who would have thought?

i went through some old screen names to see if kristen was blocking me and i saw travis' name on most of them and barely batted an eye. my main hunt was for kristen.

who would have thought?

herr craven and i have some bizarre form of correspondence and i haven't seen him in a .. really long time. who would have thought i would be so happy because of it? actually, i probably would have thought.

who would have thought?

that i have a shot at being healthy?